Better than what, you ask? Better than November!
You can see that I really haven’t blogged much this month….and nothing new has been added to the Etsy shop, and my Ebay listings are nearly non existent. I’m feeling very frustrated right now, and and irritated and stressed out with my world.
There have been numerous small irritations this month, but the BIG events have really made the small ones seem worse than tney were. Initially, in mid-October, I became ill with what my doctor and I have since (sort of) determined may be diverticulitis. When the symptoms first came on, I had a lot of pain and discomfort. Based on the fact that the symptoms worsened after eating, we approached treatment from the standpoint that it was diverticulitis.
I went on a clear liquid diet for 3 days, then I went on a course of antibiotics that really took the wind out of my sails. For two weeks, I was tired, headachy, nauseous, dizzy, and nothing tasted good. I had no energy, and after I got home from work at night, I basically crashed. No jewelry making. No jewelry selling. No blogging.
In mid November, just when I was starting to feel good again, the world came crashing in, literally. On a Monday night, about two weeks ago, I was in bed sleeping, and my husband was in the living room watching TV. It was about 11:30. Just then two young males (maybe 20 ish?) pulled up at the end of our driveway, got out of their car, and approached the house. They pounded on the door, demanding access. My husband was able to fend them off during an extended and loud interaction with them. By then I had awoke because of the noise, and was calling 911. In the end, they didn’t get in, but there was damage done to our doorframe.
Needless to say, I didn’t sleep that night, and barely the next night. My husband and I catnapped in shifts for the next week, not knowing if they would be back.
Our house is well lit, and in a quiet, middle class family neighborhood. The nearest my husband and I could figure, we surmised it was a random home invasion, possibly as part of a gang initiation. The police arrived after the attackers had fled, and there was really nothing for them to do. They did drive around a bit, and patrolled the area during the evening.
Never in a million years would I expect this to happen at my home, but it did, and I know this will affect me for a long time. By the end of the week, I was exhausted and stressed out beyond beleif. I can’t say for sure if that led to a relapse of my illness, but on the following Saturday, at 5AM, I woke in such pain that I could hardly move. I could not sit, stand, or lay comfortably. I woke my husband (still sleeping on the couch), and he took my to the hospital.
My blood pressure was very low, and I was dehydrated, so they gave me an IV. Several tests were done, with unfortunately, no conclusive results. The doctor once again put me on a clear liquid diet for two days, and sent me home with a prescription for Tylenol 3. I pretty much spent the past weekend in bed.
That leads us to Thanksgiving -and the end of November. I really just want to feel “normal” again, and get back into the jewelry world which is leaving me behind. I totally missed out on Black Friday sales, and Small Business Saturday sales. I just couldn’t do it.
I do still have time to get ready for Christmas, but I’m also coming into what is the busiest month of the year for me at my job. If all of this sounds a bit like I am feeling sorry for myself, it’s not really that…it’s more a frustration over losing control of my life. I’m hoping that the joy, love, and peace of the Christmas season will surround me and my family-and yours, too!